Showing posts with label feels. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feels. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Reflection: Archipelagic Melancholy

I was supposed to go to the Capital soon. A bit frustrated but stuff has to be done at the home island.

Why yes, that was both a Hunger Games and Game of Thrones reference. LOL.


Hundred Islands, Pangasinan. So Archipelago. Many water. Wow.
My nation is a nation of islands. 7,107 islands. Well, that's the clean and neat figure they put in the text books but it's a good number, I guess. Whatever the real count is, we're a bunch of fragmented pieces (of land) bound by a national government and shared history under the domination of the Spanish, then the Americans. Then we gained "independence". Cool, but I digress. 

What if the Germans came in? What if the British stayed? Oh right, I forgot about the Japanese occupation. Again, I digress.

The main problem I have with this island life is that it just places people and places apart.

When we talk of seas separating us, in most cases it's not just a metaphor. Literally, seas separate us. When we get to the level of metaphors, the seas just bloat into oceans.

Anyway, I'm drifting and I haven't written anything on my blog for sometime so here we go.

I was suppose to go to the Capital on business and on the sideline, bonding with friends made in the Capital. I've lived in the Capital for some time and I'm not that anti-social so I made friends. Hurrah! The thought of disappointed plus my tendency to insomnia has gotten me to write. Again, hurrah!

I also have family in the Capital and surrounding areas. I am ethnically Tagalog too so that makes sense. I was born in the Capital City of the Republic and naturally I had a proclivity for the language and the tongue. Even in my home in the south of the Queen City of the South, that northern tongue prevails. My pure Cebuano brother put an end to that tyranny. God bless that boy. Haha. I was hoping to devour some Wicked Oreos in one of my favorite college-accessible restaurants.



Wicked Oreos. Hmm. Watermark says Gaby Jimenez, so thank you whoever you are for this picture I got from Google.
Oreos stuffed in fried batter and served with vanilla ice cream. Good gracious goodness, I'll have them sweeties soon enough. Again, I digress.

I wish it was easier to get to the Capital and to the different corners of the Republic. If only it was a long bus trip away, without crossing water, or a train away. Train? Now that would make things amazing.

I reflect in speed the political, social, economic and other factors that come in to play with the Republic's archipelagic nature. I don't want to write a paper on it though. I just want my Oreos stuffed into fried batter and served to me with vanilla ice cream. Hmm. Food.

I miss my friends and family in Luzon, I crave for Wicked Oreos (but I heard they're served in the Queen City now), and somewhat, I just want to go there. But definitely, I wouldn't want to live there for too long again.

Oh islands, can we ever unite into one (land) mass? Can we? Could we? I hope so.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Poem: Best Friend

I wrote this poem some time ago. Now online in blog form.

"I am your goodbye, always on your lips
never really in your heart"


Was just searching through Google. This one seems to be the closest thing in my head when re-reading the poem.  "Evening Coffee Shop" by Dmitri Danish


















Best Friend

Coffee shop at eleven thirty
I should just keep quiet
And die on the inside
As you graze my soul with your ignorance
With a rough high five and cheering you on
As he takes you on dates and I find ways
To have our own by talking about these dates
As you drink your cup, I wish I was your cup
Sleek and caressing your lips

Twelve sharp and you flood our time
On how he held your hand and how you smiled
I feign joy and pride for you and your boy
Hoping to say all that you are to me
But I keep my peace seeing how you are
With that smile that just melts my heart
As you hold your phone firmly
Waiting for his goodnight text
I wish I was that phone
Held tight and staring into my face

One thirty and stories start to wither
Now diverting to our times and our places
I thank God for no more cameos
That just shadow me away
I tremble praying your next date disastrous
But that would just tarnish that smile
And break my spirit into pieces
And you bid me goodnight, goodbye
I am your goodbye always on your lips
Never really in your heart